the denial phase is officially over

and every night for the last 6 nights i have had nightmares about her. memories turned into angry episodes. replayed in my dream. moments of confusion becoming clear and truths being seen as reality. highlights of times i wish i would have left but was not brave enough. the nightmares are vivid, violent and way too real. my space feels occupied by her. i want my dreams back. i want dream about my life. not what could have been and not about betrayal and heartache.